Experts & Views
Yep. So here I am finally starting a new epoch in my not so happening Life. Am finally entering into the mystical and magical realms of the blogosphere. And what a platform to share my blog with all my peers and contemporaries!
I say random ramblings because I'll randomly try to put things here, will scribble a lot of senseless rubbish with some senseful proses in between. Well if you are a good researcher you will get the gist of it! Hope so!
Disillusioned I say because I have no idea where I am going with my legal or for that matter my personal life. Have tried it all, living my personal life at the expense of my legal life, flunking exams, not interning, booze,fag,bikes and of course girls.
Have tried to balance both which sadly resulted in a lethargic monotonous schedule which I couldn't keep up with. Have tried to kill my personal life, have slogged for days and days surviving on coffee and chocolate cookies, have strained my eyes staring to the computer screen that at one time I was sure my eyeballs were either going to burst or pop out. Have researched and read and drafted arguments related to Torts, Constitituional Law, IPR, that for quite some time I was under the impression that I had mastered atleast one of the subjects, which very well the judge couldn't agree less on. So I have truly and in all it's entirety failed inl all the three lifestyles.
And believe me I've tried and tasted it all. Those uncalled for fights, those 17 shots of the not so soothing liquid, the throbbing pain, the disprin and coffee which followed later, to the Best researcher, orator, to being a normal student with no purpose whatsoever.
So where do I stand right now? well let's see. Three and a half years down the drain, current status- wandering, scribbling commenting on blogs when after around five hours have got an exam to write. But that's not the point I want to make.
I have no idea what I'm going to do with my life. Sure will get a job, no issues with that, my C.V. and contacts are not that bad. But what will the job change? I'll still keep on lamenting & ruminating & brooding about my life. Is this what I want from my life? No.
So if you do not won't to end up like me or like some other loser. Go get your Life straight. Figure out what you want to do with your life. Intern, research, try to find the field in which you are interested and once you find it don't let it go.
Do what your heart says, but never backtrack. You might fail at times but remember the success achieved will bring only more happiness.
As much as I wish to continue this rambling I will have to call it off, the phone is continuously pestering me, will have to take the call.
Will continue my ramblings later based on your views, reviews. Just hope that this piece doesn't get lost in the vast blogosphere!
Cheers!
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Literati - almost everyone goes through stages of disillusionment. It's only the test of fire that makes fine steel. Ten years down the line, you'll actually be thankful for going through this.
Legal Dodo
Anyways, this is for you and others also, based on what I think (I can be wrong). Lawschool is not just about a job. Its about education. Once this is understood, and once you decide that it is a degree that you want (or if you are in it by default, u think u can benefit from it), it becomes easier. Lawschool offers a beautiful life experience – yes, I am counting everything in here (inc. the shots and the other sins) and not just acads & co-curricular stuff. If u give your lawschool stint even 70%, it does wonders and makes you evolve (and that’s education my friend).
Getting disillusioned is fine. Happens. Lit. Corporate. Solicitor frim. Every professional asks himself / herself why, what, how? Same for lawschool, esp. 3rd year and thereabouts. You have to stand the test of time.
Two things u said that I second.
“Do what your heart says, but never backtrack.” Bang on. If you fail once, try it twice. You may like it. If after two shots u dnt like it, try other things.
“what will the job change? I'll still keep on lamenting & ruminating & brooding about my life”. Yes, you probably will. Some people do not want to be a lawyer and life of a lawyer may just make them brood. So maybe you can try other things. You are a graduate degree holder. And a smarter individual than you were 3-and-half years back (if you have done all that you said u have done). DO NOT get into law if you don’t feel passionate about it coz even passionate ppl get disillusioned. Job won’t change things.
Although emotionally you don't seem competent to hand out advice to anyone, here's something i think you might have overlooked - Life itself. Since when did the best years of your life (and i mean it.. these really are the best years of your life. Try not to let that disillusion you even further) become about jobs, interships and money? Isn't that what you'll spend the rest of your life for anyways? When are you going to get the liberty to just drink like a fish, date every girl under the sun and sit around and do nothing? If you take up a career in law, chances are you never will.
I've had my share of non productiveness during my time at law school. I do not brag about contacts in the profession or a tight cv. But i consider myself richer than the ones who've got both. I've lived on my own, met fantastic people, had some incredible experiences both positive and negative. I walk away from law school richer in life as cliched and 'fag'gy as that sounds. I have all my life ahead to make contacts and get a good job.
So cheer up. Its far too early for you to sound that old my man :)
All these extracuricular activities like" Fag, Booze, Babes" corrupt the already disturbed mind and derail the smooth journey one can undertake in any academic institution. Only a fortunate few are chosen after a tough admission test.
Enjoy the college days with good physical and mental activities. Look at life with POSITIVE MENTAL ATTITUDE. Then you will have a great personal and legal life !
Reach for the stars...Your future is IN YOUR OWN HANDS !
i got into the top law school in india, dropped out, went to another law school in another part of the globe! this law school is one of the top in its side of the planet. i got vac schemes with the magic circles firms, have a brilliant cv and doing everything out there, professionally.
i am undergoing the same experience. first, tried killing my personal life successfully only to realise one cant do without it. then tried balancing it and realised law school and personal life ... not the best mix! killing the professional life is not an option! cant just throw away everything after coming so far!
its not an issue about commitment, i have been committed to it ever since the fifth grade!
but wait. how far have we come? have we taken the right path to begin with? if we have, have we taken it for the right reasons? if we did take it for the right reasons, do we still hold them dearly?
life evolves, circumstances change and the state of mind is always dynamic.
one thing is true, its never a dead-end. the problem is with our mindset, at least in my case. i had planned my life too far ahead.
the first day i walked in to meet my personal tutor and he asked me what i wanted to do, i replied, 'I want to get a first class degree, get a masters from US and head back to india to practise.' He replied, 'I meant what are you doing later today.'
@legal dodo and # 4: i agree it is well written
@everyone else: stop preaching people! a single slightly negative blog post (it isn't all that negative either) doesn't mean her (i guess that is the proper pronoun; relying on #4 here) life is in shambles or the person is overtly negative. it is as the title of the blog aptly mentions a random ramble
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