A very intelligent acquaintance had once told me, “The reason why you want to become a lawyer and the things you do after becoming a lawyer are mostly different.”

Mostly people decide they want to do law ‘to serve the society’. It is indeed a very noble thought and definitely a strong motive to join a course. What happens after you pass out? You look for money and recognition and more money. The ideal thoughts that got you into the course are nowhere to be found.

Hell! It has even happened to me. I wanted to get a law degree because I thought I would be doing something for the society after I pass out. Helping people get ‘justice’. Improve people’s lives. I thought I would intern at places that matter, which affects the society directly. I will make a difference.

I am still studying and it seems I am already too far away from my dream. All I am worried about right now is CGPA, Moots, Conferences and Seminars, Recruitment and what not. Where did the old me disappear? The one who would give a damn.

I do not care about Human rights, Legal rights or Legal Aid. I don’t care if people suffer just because they don’t know their rights. I have become insensitive. I have become selfish. I have become greedy.

I have already completed a few years in college and so all my acquaintances think that I am a career councillor when it comes to choosing a law as a career and then choosing a law school. All the above things came to my mind when I asked a young aspiring law student why she wanted to get a law degree. She had come to learn things from me but instead taught me something.

I would like to quote another friend, “See I took up law because I’m one of those freaks who say that we should change India, change the system etc. etc.”

After this incident, I have changed. I am trying to go back to the ‘old me’.

The question is not if I will be successful, it is whether I tried or not.