I blame myself for not being normal and liking the corp law life for the pay.

4th year T2 NLU here.

everyone around me is dying for a job in corp law. I do not understand why and how they like it

Have two major corp internships from reputable firm under my belt + conversations with almost a dozen associates in different field.

I try to understand their work, what they do and everything. None of them like their job. The law makes me tired and uninspired.

I had my first panic attack in my current law firm. I just cannot take the donkey work and the feeling of worthlessness. I had diagnosed ADHD which makes doing things that I don't like like a death sentence

Still I try to convince myself that maybe I should try more, try to see if there is a team/area that I would like even though I research and ask people working there about the work and it does not interest me but makes me want to run for my life.

I would rather go back home to my T3 town doing freelance or something else which pays less but I like it instead of doing a big law firm job which I hate but pays more.

No amount of money is enough for me to do what I understand this job entails

anyone in the same situation or has been in the same situation? what to do?

Hi!

I do not have to support my parents and I do not have any responsibilities so as long as I can support myself and I am content with myself, my parents are happy. I will definitely not fall into this for the money.

I will come back to this thread when I graduate and let you all know what happened and what I am planning.

godspeed

If you have ADHD - it will be a difficult ride for you. Depending on how you cope with uncertainty, bad surprises and stress, you might actually end up falling ill due to the way things work in law firms. Contrary to what you might have heard - other than lip service to the cause of mental health - most law firms actually don't have any facilities that can help you cope. It varies from team to team- but even then, the overall expectation is that you have a thick skin, are available most of the times, and keep your problems to yourself.

Also, if you have a tendency to get disinterested or distracted (As part of your ADHD) - that will not work well for you professionally. No point of taking up a profession where you can't excel due to the unique way your mind works AND which takes away life's peace for you.

If money is not an issue - don't succumb to the temptation. Find something else. There is definitely an advantage to working in law firms. You develop a certain rigour, work ethic & learn how to multi-task on things that you have no idea about. But it comes at a severe cost of mental health - as most law firms believe in throwing you at the deep end to see if you sink or swim. It's not useful.

My two cents would be: (A) try fresher jobs in in-house work. Some companies do offer it. It will be more relaxed. There will be a sensible learning curve. I work in-house - and trust me, it is not as easy as people make it out to be. And it is far from a paper-pushing role, as it is usually portrayed to be. (B) you can consider jobs in the policy space - but, even these if you do engaged government work - can be equally if not more stressful.

will try my best!

I am also trying to figure out adhd as I believe some part of it i.e- hyperfocus on things I like it good but the constant feeling of hating everything that I end up doing for a long time is not going to be good for me in the long term.

that being said, thank you for your comment