Hey everyone. I recently graduated this year and currently searching for jobs. I don't know where to start though as I'm having serious difficulties in my everyday life.

I find it incredibly hard to express myself clearly without writing walls of text. Simple tasks like keeping up with the news, doing groceries, or even understanding emails are a challenge. I can spend hours reading up on something, but I just can't seem to grasp it. I can see and peceive the words, but not process their meaning. When someone explains things to me, I zone out in a weird self-aware way. It's frustrating because I'm really trying to understand. Even short sentences take me forever to articulate properly despite full attention to subject matter. Even though I'm 24, mentally I feel at least a decade behind having somehow coasted through life to get to this point.

Coming back to my main problem, I've done a few internships, but they didn't give me the experience I expected. It is as if I've never done them at all. Actually, all I did during my internships was ask chat gpt and other interns for help regarding every other proposition because I couldn't figure out shit on my own.

Has anyone else been through something similar? I am afraid I'm on a steady cognitive decline ever since class 12th, idk why. Any advice on how to improve my comprehension and communication skills? What jobs should I seek rn? I struggle with both studying and doing practical everyday stuff. I'm apprehensive even if I do land up a job.. it will be like a ticking time bomb till I'm fired for being too dumb and incompetent. Where do I begin? Thanks in advance for any help you can offer.

Please visit a therapist/psychiatrist asap. The more you procrastinate on this it will get worse. If you live in Delhi visit safdarjung hospital psych ward. They don't charge any fee. Also start reading books the same way you read a newspaper/magazine. Don't pressurize yourself to remember facts or stuff. And keep the mental gymnastics running. Try crossword, sudoku, chess etc. To keep yourself sharp. Lastly get tested for vitamin D deficiency. Maybe it's just the diet. Incorporate dry fruits, leafy vegetables and cut down on sugar. Keep hanging in there bud!! You got this

I suggest you try reading judgments everyday or 5-7 judgments on weekends together.

What you have to do while reading a judgment?

1) try to understand the issue

2) understand the matter between the party and the legal issue, if arising

3) the conclusion.

How will this help?

You'll get a hang of the legal language used in the judgments. At some times you won't understand what's happening in it, but even if it's a paragraph you understand, it's an achievement.

Leverage linkedin- lawyers nowadays post various cases and short summaries of important cases or analysis of law. They'll help you over time.

It'll take you over a year gradually to get a hang of it. It won't happen in a day.

You could also try improving your focus while doing a particular thing no matter how much time it takes. Try to set attainable goals for yourself.

OP drop your email id or something. Let's create a discord/telegram group for support. I'm sure there are more people like us. We'll fight all our career/life insecurities together.

Or better yet, add me on discord: icecold_21

This goes for everyone who wants to reach out and help each other.

hi, i think getting assessed for neurodivergence at some point would be really helpful for you perhaps? either ways just simply starting therapy, getting professional help should help. tons of psychologists/psychiatrists etc., do pro bono work if budget is an issue whatsoever. take care! this will pass too 🌷

quit social media and limit phone use to get your focus back. once you do this you will be self aware and NOT hyper self aware. you will have time to read and work and will put effort into things without any constant distraction. then, take it one day at a time from there - whenever you get work at office, like an assignment, just interact with people and try to understand how to proceed with work - forming an outline, researching similar cases, finding law point etc. this will give you a good start.