I don't know why a non legal post was published here. But anyhow:
- "I become kind of jealous" - you seem like the controlling guy. Don't want him but won't let him go with anyone else (cause of the things he does for you). It is very plausible that this stems from your own issues (nobody did anything for you while growing up and now that is happening, you want it)
- If you don't find him physically attractive and are holding on to him for his gestures, then you are simply leading him on. I suggest either grow over your insecurities of wanting to date a guy who is "conventionally attractive" (whatever that is supposed to mean) OR be honest with him and end things.
As a fellow LGBTQ, I hate how unconsciously shallow we've become due to the media portraying the community as a bunch of models or nothing. I hope you can beat this unconscious bias and give him a chance :). I'm rooting for the both of you.
Move on and cut him off if you really find him that ugly, looks matter for some people and thats fine, some people dont care for looks and thats fine too, but if you find him so repulsive that you cant get any feelings for him then its best to end it quick and painless, if you enter in the relationship its going to be very very bad
- "I become kind of jealous" - you seem like the controlling guy. Don't want him but won't let him go with anyone else (cause of the things he does for you). It is very plausible that this stems from your own issues (nobody did anything for you while growing up and now that is happening, you want it)
- If you don't find him physically attractive and are holding on to him for his gestures, then you are simply leading him on. I suggest either grow over your insecurities of wanting to date a guy who is "conventionally attractive" (whatever that is supposed to mean) OR be honest with him and end things.