I (F23)really need someone to advise me. I was in a top50 clg. I am currently getting rejections from all corp law firms. I am interested in corp law. But the prblm is that, I panic in interviews and dont see myself as worthy of getting any job honestly. I am from English medium, born and brought up in tier1 city, still I see that batchmates from villages and non-english mediums and from poorer backgrounds have outdone me. i have extreme imposter syndrome, when i go for interviews, the recruiters tells me I have trouble making eye contact, trouble answering directly if I dont know the answer and i constantly beat around the bush instead of answering in short , concise, precise answers. I have trouble answering legal questions and im not able to remember provisions correctly, i always say wrong section numbers, and sometimes I dont even know which popular section number does what. I have very less substantial work experience, I thought i wont get selected anyways so I didnt apply for more internships, i know i was stupid. when i look at the intricately drafted posts that ppl make here, i get more overwhelmed. IDK wat to do about my panic and anxiety attacks. i have a very mediocre CV. the places i interned at, always shouted me for not having good quality in my work, but i tried hard and wasnt able to improve. idk how to improve, i tried all the tricks in self help bks. the whole day i'm not even talking to any frnds or family and only working on myself-still I cant get work done. i get distracted and dont have focus and i'm not able to complete 1 task till the end.

IDK how ppl in my clg were able to constantly intern, score high grades, publish in intl journals, be core members of committees, complete cs and also maintain long term lovers and deep frndships. i never ever got any one of that.

i get no respect in my house due to family thinking that i'm a failure, my siblings have all started from bottom by themselves and r now on the top in their respective fields. I was forced in the legal profession by my family, but i never got any help from them. i have now gone in a spiral depression and dont even have a single frnd, no matter how hard i reach out to anyone from my batch.

if anyone who's non judgemental and above average person who manages time properly; can give me a throwaway email to contact them, I would like to ask basic questions that i'm too afraid to ask IRL due to my fears. pls contact me - txtwing@gmail.com