I regularly ask my seniors for feedback, ask them to share their drafts with me so that I know where I am going wrong. They never do. I wonder what they get out of gatekeeping this because if I get access, I won't repeat the same mistakes, but alas. I always get berated for the simplest of things.

It will sort itself out. If it gets to be too much - then take a break. BUT the work gets easier every time you do the same thing again. Your first SHA is the toughest - as is your first DD.

Just remember that all those who now seem confident also had to struggle with what you are struggling with before they got comfortable with the process.

If it gets to be too much, talk to your partner / SA. Everyone remembers their struggles and most will sympathise.

Thank you so much. My only issue is I have no reference point to know if I am improving or not. I take so much time and now I have started messing up even basic tasks too. What would you suggest? How do I deal with this? It's the sense of inadequacy, of not been able to do even the most basic things. Every failure chips at my confidence.

I have been doing this for over a decade and a half. Please don’t listen to all of these kids who are not trying to help, they just want to rant.

Transactional lawyering requires a few skills which most people are not ordinarily born with. Unfortunately, law school in India does not equip us with these skills.

It therefore takes a few months / a year of trying to develop these skills to “get it”. If you have a good mentor, it helps.

It is not strange that you are struggling with this - struggle harder. One day, it will become easier. It is just method and process nothing else.

At some stage in your career, if you stick with it, others will help with the method and process. You will then be required to help on complicated matters or on client management. That requires a few more skills.

All of this can be learnt and if you approach it as a puzzle to be solved, it becomes more interesting.

Alternatively, you can quit and join the idiots who occupy space on LI to bitch, rant, cry, whine and shit on other people.

Litigation is equally stupid. Most lawyers recycle the same drafts over and over again, changing only party names. Barely any get to make any argument of note and most of the judges listening to them don't have the ability to understand what they are saying anyway. To top it all, there is the all-encompassing corruption.

Some context: I am in a decent NLU, but had very little corp related work experience. I was earlier sure that I would do policy work but decided extremely late in my law school that I would want to try transactional work. Anyway, cut to now- I am in my last year doing a corp internship where I am struggling even with basic tasks. Everyone is hostile and I am having a hard time understanding if I am stupid or if the people around me are being vicious. I feel I am being assigned tasks which are way above my mileage- meaning tasks which are performed by A0s and SAs. I have been having a hard time, feeling like an imposter, messing up basic tasks too because I am also being assigned tasks which I have zero familiarity with and people just sprout out directions and then berate me if I ask for clarification saying things like aren't you in your last year? Shouldn't you already know this? They also throw things which at me which they are not able to solve and are quick to throw me under the bus. They keep negging and then are quick to ask about my mental health. I'm having so much cognitive dissonance because on one hand I feel they want me to adapt myself to a steep learning curve (so that I get accustomed to this life), on other hand I feel they are being nasty to me because they get some peverse pleasure out of this. I have never been this under confident in my life. Can someone help me understand what is happening? More context: This is a Tier 1 place and despite me performing poorly on almost all assignments they continue to assign me work which is way above my pay-grade (I am not being paid) and my current capacity. My question is if I am at fault, how do I adapt to the pace of this team? For all my bad experience, even if I don't convert, I am learning a lot, learning things which other interns don't even get to learn until they start working. On the contrary, if this team is indeed unreasonable how do I respectfully push back and maintain my sanity.