I’ve been facing a mental health crisis for the past two and a half months, with things steadily worsening. In my mid-level role, I’m constantly witnessing expectations from partners and trying to manage associates— who can at times be exclusionary and cold. To be frank, I have been far from an ideal colleague to work with either.

But also this often leaves me feeling isolated and overwhelmed, especially when symptoms flare up mid-workday. A lot of these things also exaggerates inside my head when I face a bad mood swing. And above that, taking any sought of stress or being angry worsen the condition and leave me with feeling of heavy pressure on my brain and pain in body, because of which I often avoid speaking. The cold work environment only deepens the emotional toll, affecting my stability and night sleep.

I’m not looking to quit, but I’m trying to understand how others cope in similarly passively cold environments where you feel unwanted. I’m willing to fight with my teeth then to fall into depression but the crisis do end up making me feel as if I’m walking wounded.

Make allies in work place, i know everyone says that in workplace you cant trust people but you have to, to survive and not hate being there. Also try to improve life outside office. Mainstream advice, but you should try to crack jokes, learn to laugh not just at others but even yourself, lighten up a little every now and then.

You can read a book - Breaking the habit of being yourself. Try cutting out junk food for a bit completely and instead consume fruits, cold food items, fresh food items - they matter more than people think on improving our overall wellbeing.

However, being surrounded by dull-a**__les can bring anyone down(Work or home doesn't matter)

Totally switch up the kind of content you consume.

When people try to connect with you, via message or a simple greeting, let them connect with you. These little things matter and help.

This is general advice, i am definitely not a partner at a law firm but I understand you.