Coming from a not so privileged family myself, people like us cannot afford to fail because we have zero backups.
Also, zest for something isn't something you realise you are lacking when others tell it to you...,
I am someone who too has zero passion for law, but I don't mind it, I don't hate it. I am a corporate lawyer, who is paid well and is settled at a firm where the work life balance is good enough to enjoy life outside my career. With the overpopulation, the fight and competition in our generation, its impossible for everyone, especially for people not from wealthy families to 'follow their dreams' and still make it in something they are passionate about.
So many people in our generation keep on following an unrealistic path or do not realise what they actually want from life. However, one thing is sure, a good standard of living and a decent lifestyle without monetary pressure is one integral aspect of a good life no matter how fulfilling a passion powered career might be.
So I suggest that you suck it up, work for 2 years, pay off the loan, add some security to your family's finances and then look for what you want. You have tried to cover multiple bases and have never been sure about your career anyway, (PCBM + Bio + JEE), by looks of things, you aren't sure about what to do now too, you are only sure about what not to do.
So don't do law permanently, do it for 25 months, get out of the guilt and then do whatever you might want to do, since you giving everything up now will not only add monetary pressure but also add guilt and stress in whatever you choose to do next, its best that you first pay off the loan by doing law and then have some savings before jumping into a career change. A free guilt free mind and more space to think, plus these 2 years to think what to do next, will surely make you choose wisely.
One other thing, counterbalance aspirations with real world practical problems you are facing, otherwise you would end up digging a bigger hole for yourself.
Am a 2022 grad, and was in the same proverbial shoes as yours. Took a drop year to figure things out, and yes, my family is relatively well off so I could afford a drop year, but ask yourself this: would you rather have an year of hardship whilst trying to figure where your true interests lie, or a lifetime of working in a profession which you detest?
Also, would really advise you not reject opportunities on their face value. I, for eg, wanted to get out of the law firm rat race so bad that I inevitably dragged my ass into a far muckier one, by opting for an MBA. Try and give time to the opportunities that come your way a strong hard look before saying no them.
I was in the same position a while ago. More or less same story. Then some idiot told me "Even if you are shitting, you don't get up and walk away. You'd be pooping your pants. You finish the process, clean up and walk away." I am doing the same, which certainly ain't shitting.
So yeah, the process gets over when you pay off the loans and your parents' retirement life is secured.
Know that there are so many people that don't get the job that you have got. You will get sympathy here from all the rich and privileged brats. But, looking at it practically, the privilege# like "interest, passion, zeal, zest" etc. are only available to the rich and affluent.
Try taking up a not so demanding job with a decent pay or a super demanding job with a high pay. Eject yourself out of this situation slowly over a long term with a side hustle of interest or at a shorter duration with good pay.
Explore alternative career options in similar fields gradually such as CA, CS, CMA, advisory, consultancy, managerial roles.
Maybe try praying and meditation to keep mental balance.
Don't give up on life. Life is more than just career.
"Do not suffer your mind."
Do this exercise. Make a list of hundred things or people you are grateful for. Acknowledge your privilege. These will eventually reduce and become tolerable. Practice gratitude everyday by writing three things at least.
Else, no matter how much a person has, no matter how sorted everything is, some elements in the question posted above, I won't name which, are capable of making you feel miserable. Don't fall into that trap.
Also, zest for something isn't something you realise you are lacking when others tell it to you...,
I am someone who too has zero passion for law, but I don't mind it, I don't hate it. I am a corporate lawyer, who is paid well and is settled at a firm where the work life balance is good enough to enjoy life outside my career. With the overpopulation, the fight and competition in our generation, its impossible for everyone, especially for people not from wealthy families to 'follow their dreams' and still make it in something they are passionate about.
So many people in our generation keep on following an unrealistic path or do not realise what they actually want from life. However, one thing is sure, a good standard of living and a decent lifestyle without monetary pressure is one integral aspect of a good life no matter how fulfilling a passion powered career might be.
So I suggest that you suck it up, work for 2 years, pay off the loan, add some security to your family's finances and then look for what you want. You have tried to cover multiple bases and have never been sure about your career anyway, (PCBM + Bio + JEE), by looks of things, you aren't sure about what to do now too, you are only sure about what not to do.
So don't do law permanently, do it for 25 months, get out of the guilt and then do whatever you might want to do, since you giving everything up now will not only add monetary pressure but also add guilt and stress in whatever you choose to do next, its best that you first pay off the loan by doing law and then have some savings before jumping into a career change. A free guilt free mind and more space to think, plus these 2 years to think what to do next, will surely make you choose wisely.
One other thing, counterbalance aspirations with real world practical problems you are facing, otherwise you would end up digging a bigger hole for yourself.
Also, would really advise you not reject opportunities on their face value. I, for eg, wanted to get out of the law firm rat race so bad that I inevitably dragged my ass into a far muckier one, by opting for an MBA. Try and give time to the opportunities that come your way a strong hard look before saying no them.
So yeah, the process gets over when you pay off the loans and your parents' retirement life is secured.
Know that there are so many people that don't get the job that you have got. You will get sympathy here from all the rich and privileged brats. But, looking at it practically, the privilege# like "interest, passion, zeal, zest" etc. are only available to the rich and affluent.
Try taking up a not so demanding job with a decent pay or a super demanding job with a high pay. Eject yourself out of this situation slowly over a long term with a side hustle of interest or at a shorter duration with good pay.
Explore alternative career options in similar fields gradually such as CA, CS, CMA, advisory, consultancy, managerial roles.
Maybe try praying and meditation to keep mental balance.
Don't give up on life. Life is more than just career.
"Do not suffer your mind."
Do this exercise. Make a list of hundred things or people you are grateful for. Acknowledge your privilege. These will eventually reduce and become tolerable. Practice gratitude everyday by writing three things at least.
Else, no matter how much a person has, no matter how sorted everything is, some elements in the question posted above, I won't name which, are capable of making you feel miserable. Don't fall into that trap.